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Gabriel ([personal profile] impudentsongbird) wrote2012-08-20 08:38 pm

let me be the one you call / if you jump I'll break your fall

Book Four: Dark Days
1 | into the breach
2 | finding skulduggery
3 | retreat to the tunnels
4 | into the cacophony
5 | sanctuary in the cathedral
6 | reuniting old friends
7 | kenspeckle's new patient
8 | holy water and disinfectant
9 | objecting to china sorrows
10 | the roadtrip
11 | baffling guild
12 | shenanigans at the safehouse
13 | reassuring fletcher
14 | valkyrie's intervention
15 | solomon's revelation
16 | visiting the edgleys
17 | recalled to the sanctuary
18 | guild's confusion
19 | gabe is busted
20 | the psychic tattoist
21 | envisioning the cacophony
22 | angel's first migraine
23 | the morning after
24 | china and solomon
25 | detectives' council of war
26 | china's foolishness
27 | the collector dethroned
28 | finding crux
29 | skulduggery's vileness revealed
30 | sorrows in aftermath
31 | finding equilibrium
32 | the devil's number
33 | at the carnival
34 | meeting authorities
35 | solomon's confession
36 | the stray soul
37 | sanguine unsettled
38 | solomon's choice
39 | a cowboy underground
40 | in scarab's basement
41 | striking midnight
42 | craven contested
43 | emergency services
44 | on your feet
45 | and don't stop moving
46 | easy recognition
47 | a deuce of an evening
48 | engines roaring
49 | compromising judgements
50 | solomon's conflict
51 | axis turning
52 | thinking circular
53 | blasting the past
54 | reviling vile

Book Five: Mortal Coil
55 | sanctuary unsanctified
56 | shudder unravelling
57 | catching an angel
58 | layering dimensions
59 | dead men meeting
60 | when it rains
61 | power plays
62 | sing on gold
63 | the valley of death
64 | grand aspersions
65 | no evil feared
66 | new days rising
67 | angelic neuroses
68 | step-brothers working
69 | the many sorrows of china
70 | peacefully wreathed
71 | tarnished gold
72 | the secret in darkness
73 | magical intent
74 | scars worth keeping
75 | benefits of a beau
76 | grand magery
77 | lighting the darkness
78 | old dogs and new tricks
79 | flouting traditions
80 | drawing lines
81 | brothers and sisters in arms
82 | channelling angels
83 | return of the carnies
84 | the death bringers
85 | meriting agelessness
86 | knick knack, paddy
87 | give a dog a bone
88 | americans propheteering
89 | the right side of honour
90 | tailored shocks
91 | hosting angels
92 | elders anonymous
93 | rediscovered strays
94 | changings and changelings
95 | a state of reflection
96 | adding hope
97 | the devil's truth
98 | dead mens' hospitality
99 | lives half lived
100 | next to godliness
101 | devilish plans
102 | beached angels
103 | lights of revelation
104 | heroes worshipped
105 | new devilries
106 | angels under the yoke
107 | brains frozen
108 | father, mother, daughter
109 | parental guidance recommended
110 | driven round the bend
111 | ongoing training
112 | privileged information
113 | reasonable men
114 | passing the buck
115 | gifting magicks
116 | strengths and weaknesses
117 | immaturity's perks
118 | priests and prophets
119 | scaling evil
120 | blowing covers
121 | marring an afternoon
122 | lie detection
123 | five-dimensional pain
124 | reliving nightmares
125 | taking stock
126 | sampling spices
127 | sleeping prophets lying
128 | rueful returns
129 | dead men reunion
130 | medically-approved hugs


The life of an angel was a contradiction in changes and stability. On one hand, they understood very well the way the cosmos was shaped by events within it. On the other, they stood at one step apart from it—or at least had, for a very long time, up until their Master's recent wager with Lucifer. Changes in the recent past had, even for angels, been fast and turbulent, but there were none that concerned Raphael more than Gabriel's abrupt reserve.

In the aftermath of the wager Gabriel had been almost the only one to know where their Lord was at any given time, a fact which had put the Archangel very firmly under Lucifer's radar. Raphael had joked that Gabriel ought to arm himself with more jokes or worse clothes to drive the fallen angel away; Michael had offered the peace of the Garden Coast. (Rafe thought his idea was better.)

Either way, even though their Master was fair hidden, every angel knew that they had only to ask Gabriel and the Archangel would pass on a message.

Then Gabriel had simply blipped off the radar himself. Poof! Gone! No one had noticed at first, because, well, they weren't exactly in constant connection. It was just when Raphael had taken a whim to seek out his younger brother that he'd noticed it, and let it be, because there was absolutely a reason for it. Gabe did not just off and vanish, except that once with his self-exile, and that didn’t count.

But when Gabriel had come back, he had been strangely agitated and yet close-mouthed. The younger Archangel had vanished off to wherever their Master was hidden for a long chat Raphael was dying to have listened into, and yet couldn't (but only partly because it would have been rude). Now he was here, floating among the stars and examining a black hole with unnerving intensity.

For a time Raphael watched without letting on that he was there, but eventually Gabriel spoke. “I’d rather you came to join me instead of lurking, brother.”

Absolutely refusing to feel chagrined, Raphael let himself manifest with an arm around Gabriel’s shoulders and ruffled the younger angel’s hair. Gabriel threw a fond, longsuffering glance up at him, but there was something in his eyes, something distracted and sharp, which indicated that Gabriel still wasn’t truly present. Raphael only wished he knew where the other Archangel was.

“Just wondering what you’re doin’ all the way out here,” he said teasingly. “There’s a party going on down there on Earth, Gabe.” There was always a party going on down on Earth. “You oughta be down there bobbin’ for apples and switching up party-hats!”

“I can’t,” Gabriel said quietly, with a sort of seriousness Raphael had, for all Gabriel’s literalness, rarely heard from him. So Raphael fell into the same seriousness, lost his playful accent, and spoke directly.

“Why not, brother? You’ve been reserved of late. I conf—I’m worried for you.”

For a very long time Gabriel said nothing and stared into the slow-turning swirl of the black hole. Raphael waited patiently, his arm still companionably across the other Archangel’s shoulders. Eventually Gabriel spoke. “Did you know, Raphael,” he said, “that the universe you see around you here isn’t the only one our Master has created?”

Raphael was so startled that he couldn’t answer. That wasn’t what he was imagining. He hadn’t been sure what he’d been imagining, but that wasn’t it. “I’m not sure what you mean, Gabriel,” he said after a moment. “Our Lord told me the story of Creation not all that long ago, and he never mentioned anything of the kind.”

Gabriel nodded. “He told me that story as well. And then He asked if I really wanted to know details.” He hesitated. “I … admit, I declined. It’s something He said—about faith. I decided I didn’t need to know details. But it’s true, nevertheless. Just beyond this …” The Archangel reached out his hand and touched that gossamer and unbreakable fabric that supported reality. “There are other universes, even with different versions of us.”

“Different versions of us?” Raphael repeated, appalled and uncertain and entirely confused. How could that be possible? What could their Master want with more than one of any of them? What was going on? Where had Gabriel gone in that time he’d vanished? Then something occurred to him and he smiled with relief. “This is a joke, right?”

Gabriel looked up at him and smiled back with such a gentle understanding that for a moment Raphael felt very small indeed. “No, Rafe. I’m not joking. It was a shock to me too. That isn’t the point, though.”

“Isn’t it?” Raphael asked, feeling as dazed as an angel possibly could, especially when he wasn’t even inhabiting an actual physical body.

“No.” Gabriel returned to watching the black hole intently. “I met some people from other realities. One of them is in a kind of Hell, and he very much does not deserve it. I promised him that, if I could, I would save him from it.”

Which did not in the least explain why Gabe was staring at a black hole, let alone a million other questions Raphael would have liked to ask and for which he couldn’t find the words. Finally he found one. “How?”

“First,” Gabriel said with a sort of tranquillity Raphael had heard in his brother’s voice a million times but never after delivering so turbulent a piece of news, “I’m going to jimmy open a crack in the door through this hole.”

Raphael stared at Gabe, and then at the black hole, and then back at Gabe. He opened his mouth to ask whether their Master knew he was planning this and then closed it, because that was a stupid question. He opened it again to query if Gabriel had asked whether he could go around lifting the sheets and then realised that was also a stupid question, because whether he had or not, their Master probably would have told him to do what he felt was best.

It was equally clear that Gabriel very much planned to go through with this, no matter what Raphael said, and really, did Raphael have the right to object? Surely if this carried a risk, their Master would have already forbidden Gabriel from making the attempt?

“I’ll come with,” Raphael said at last, and this time when Gabriel glanced back the younger Archangel’s expression was startled. A moment later that expression shifted into grateful apology.

“I’m sorry, Rafe, but I’m not entirely certain I’ll make it through, and we can hardly leave Michael here alone.” He grinned. “Did you see what he was wearing last festival day on the Garden Coast? He hasn’t moved out of the eighteenth century yet. How would he possibly handle the rest of the world?”

Raphael laughed out loud, warm but startled, and the sound of it rang through space. Gabriel chuckled quietly beside him, and for a few minutes there was just companionable humour that faded into an equally comfortable silence.

Still, Raphael had a lot of questions. How did Gabriel plan to find his friend, let alone the universe he was in? How was he going to get back? What would he do if he met another version of himself? Or, worse, Lucifer? Finally the Archangel just asked, “Have you figured out how to crack open the door?”

“I think so,” Gabriel said, considering the black hole. “Once I figured out what to look for. I wouldn’t have gotten even that far if it weren’t for some things our Master said.”

Which meant that, in some fashion, this expedition was sanctioned by their Master, Raphael translated, and something tense in him relaxed. “Something do to with this drain here, I’ll bet,” he said, falling into his casual accent once more. “Gonna rip out the kitchen sink, li’l brother?”

“Just to see what’s hiding underneath,” Gabriel said with a grin.

“I’ll try’n keep it open for ya,” Raphael promised, and Gabriel sent him a smile which lit up the very space around them with its brilliance.

“Thank you, Rafe,” he said, and straightened. Raphael took his arm away as Gabriel lifted his hands, not exactly stepping back so much as giving Gabriel space. The youngest Archangel didn’t often reveal his power, but it was always a sight to see, a song to hear, when he did.

As it was now. Gabriel’s voice started deep, lifted high, split and wove and became more melodies than one would think a single being could possibly sing at once. The sound of it made Raphael’s heart soar, made him want to fly and laugh. It was so deep, so light, so resonating that it was physical; it touched the slow turn of the black hole and made it, for just the briefest of moments, still. In that moment Gabriel sent a carefully-aimed bolt of energy into the heart of it.

It was the kind of sight Raphael hadn’t seen in thousands of years, a play of physics and metaphysics which he hadn’t thought possible, let alone imagined. There was an eruption in the centre of the black hole, where gravity was condensed; the cascade of energy plumed upward and was dragged back down as quick, a tear in the fabric of the reality not allowed the time to widen or become a danger.

Raphael didn’t even know Gabe had moved until the younger Archangel was gone, he was so busy staring in awe. With a start the Archangel stretched out his senses and just barely managed to catch a glimpse of his brother shooting toward the hole at speeds few angels could have achieved through such a gravity well. Raphael certainly couldn’t have.

How, he suddenly wondered, was he meant to keep that open if he didn’t even have the speed of thought to track Gabriel’s movements through it?

Desperately the Archangel cast about for something to jam in the door, as it were. There was some dark matter nearby and with a thought he fashioned it into a spear and pitched it toward the centre of the black hole. It struck just as Gabriel flitted through the crack nearly wholly collapsed in on itself; the star’s gravity caught it, pulled it in, and plugged the opening like a metaphysical sink.

Slowly Raphael made every part of himself relax. For good or ill, Gabe was gone on this quest of his, and now Raphael should probably go and round up some of their younger siblings to guard the area. Just in case.


Book Four: Dark Days

into the breach | finding skulduggery | retreat to the tunnels | into the cacophony | sanctuary in the cathedral | reuniting old friends | kenspeckle's new patient | holy water and disinfectant | objecting to china sorrows | the roadtrip | baffling guild | shenanigans at the safehouse | reassuring fletcher | valkyrie's intervention | solomon's revelation | visiting the edgleys | recalled to the sanctuary | guild's confusion | gabe is busted | the psychic tattoist | envisioning the cacophony | angel's first migraine | the morning after | china and solomon | detectives' council of war | china's foolishness | the collector dethroned | finding crux | skulduggery's vileness revealed | sorrows in aftermath | finding equilibrium | the devil's number | at the carnival | meeting authorities | solomon's confession | the stray soul | sanguine unsettled | solomon's choice | a cowboy underground | in scarab's basement | striking midnight | craven contested | emergency services | on your feet | and don't stop moving | easy recognition | a deuce of an evening | engines roaring | compromising judgements | solomon's conflict | axis turning | thinking circular | blasting the past | reviling vile

Book Five: Mortal Coil

sanctuary unsanctified | shudder unravelling | catching an angel | layering dimensions | dead men meeting | when it rains | power plays | sing on gold | the valley of death | grand aspersions | no evil feared | new days rising | angelic neuroses | step-brothers working | the many sorrows of china | peacefully wreathed | tarnished gold | the secret in darkness | magical intent | scars worth keeping | benefits of a beau | grand magery | lighting the darkness | old dogs and new tricks | flouting traditions | drawing lines | brothers and sisters in arms | channelling angels | return of the carnies | the death bringers | meriting agelessness | knick knack, paddy | give a dog a bone | americans propheteering | the right side of honour | tailored shocks | hosting angels | elders anonymous | rediscovered strays | changings and changelings | a state of reflection | adding hope | the devil's truth | dead mens' hospitality | lives half lived | next to godliness | devilish plans | beached angels | lights of revelation | heroes worshipped | new devilries | angels under the yoke | brains frozen | father, mother, daughter | parental guidance recommended | driven round the bend | ongoing training | privileged information | reasonable men | passing the buck | gifting magicks | strengths and weaknesses | immaturity's perks | priests and prophets | scaling evil | blowing covers | marring an afternoon | lie detection | five-dimensional pain | reliving nightmares | taking stock | sampling spices | sleeping prophets lying | rueful returns | dead men reunion | medically-approved hugs
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-14 01:23 pm (UTC)(link)
"Ponies deserve the best places to lay their heads all right," Grandad agreed, still with that soft, infinitely gentle smile. But there was something sad in his eyes too. Something that made Allie tilt her head at him and reach out to take his hand.

"Where's your granddaughter?" she asked impulsively. "Is she in Heaven now?" She had to be. He was so kind and there was something so sad in his eyes.

He let her take it, let her wrap her small fingers around his. They were rough, she could feel. What were they called? Calluses. Like someone who worked hard. Not just like Daddy, but like Daddy before, when he was in the Army. Helping people, doing things with his hands.

"They're all in Heaven now," he said, and his smile changed, becoming broader, happy like Allie felt happy just before Christmas when she knew it would be good. "But it ain't bad. I'll see 'em again."

For a long moment Allie looked into his face. He might be happy about that, and maybe it was true, but it wasn't the whole truth. "They hurt bad before they went up to Heaven though, didn't they?" she asked steadily in a tone that did not belong to any carefree child.

"Yeah, they did," he said softly.

"And you couldn't do anything to stop them hurting," Allie said, and knew it was right because of the way the tears came to his eyes. "Like Daddy can't stop me when I hurt, because he just can't, or because he tries and it accidentally makes it worse. Like my last operation did."

He didn't say anything. He just looked at her silently, and his face glowed, proud and happy and loving and sad because of all the things he couldn't stop. Impulsively Allie clambered up to her knees and put her arms around his shoulders, her teddy-bear still in her the crook of her elbow, and kissed his cheek. It was all bristly, like Daddy's when he didn't have a chance to shave after work. "It's okay. It makes us stronger. And when I get to Heaven I'll tell your granddaughter you can't wait 'til you see her again."

He hugged her back, and even though his tone was amused it was gruff with emotion too. "How you gonna know who she is?"

"I'll know," Allie said with certainty, and pulled back, slowly so she didn't tilt over. Her heart was going quick, like it did when she moved even though she shouldn't. Primly she arranged her bedcovers around her again, settling her teddy-bear beside her, and looked at Ghastly. "His name's Nicholas," she said firmly. "After Father Christmas."
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-14 04:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Where's your granddaughter? Is she in Heaven now?

Ghastly didn't know what sort of an answer he'd been expecting God to give. He didn't know enough about the Bible. He certainly didn't expect God to lie, which was probably why the tailor grew very still as the conversation went on.

Barney stood up and took a few steps away, bringing the sleeve of his sweater quickly up to his face. Ghastly, who had been sitting on the foot of the bed and, apparently, unconsciously using Barney to block his view of God when He came up, could now clearly see His reactions to everything Allie was saying.

Ghastly didn't have the context, but he knew enough. And it stunned him.

How must it feel, to be the only being in existence until you yourself created companions? Companions who believed they'd be damned if they so much as argued with you? And the only one who did was somehow filled with such hatred for everything you created and wanted to achieve, everything you stood for, that he eventually Fell? Cast down by you, by your oldest companion, because there was no other way?

'Of course I made it that way. I made it easy a few times, and it always got borin' fast.'

Free will, Gabe had said. A gift that the angels didn't even know they had until just recently. People took free will for granted; the ability to make decisions on their own without any idea of what the consequences might be, because they'd never known anything else. But Ghastly could suddenly picture how hard the concept of free will must have been at first, for anyone, up to and especially including the one who oversaw it all. Who created it all. How any world without it just... wouldn't be the same.

He could also picture, very vividly, how much you would want to protect it when you finally had it. Gabriel, especially; the way he'd grown angry at China for the smallest infringement on that gift. And that was only millions of years without it. Only millions. How long had God gone without anyone willing to second-guess what He was doing?

Ghastly looked at Dad, Grandad, the fisherman. At the tears. And for the first time since stumbling off the curb outside the bar an eternity ago, he didn't see the man as God. He saw God as, simply, a very, very old man. A man who'd been through the exact same struggles as everyone on Earth, over and over again, and was simply old enough to know what the answer was. Old enough to know that, no matter how much it hurt, no matter how much you wanted to intervene, no matter how much doing nothing was twisting you up inside... sometimes you just had to let your children make their own mistakes.

Dad. Grandad. Father. Of course He could stop the suffering in this room. Of course He wanted to. But what would happen then?

Barney's back was still turned to them. Ghastly looked up and regarded him sadly. The man would need a proper Christmas this year. That was all Ghastly could really offer him; some comfort. Like a teddy-bear, here and there, at various hospitals around the world, just to let people know that no one had been forgotten. That everyone was loved.

Maybe he could get Skulduggery to join in, too. The detective wasn't a big fan of Christmas, but with a little persuasion at just the right moment, he might relent. He would relent. Ghastly would make sure of it. A little unconditional cheer once a year wouldn't kill him.

Ghastly looked back at Allie, smiled, reached out and shook the bear's paw. "Good to meet you, Nicholas. I'm Ghastly."

He'd wondered before if giving inanimate objects names somehow granted them something resembling a soul. Names were power, after all. At this rate, Ghastly wasn't going to take anything for granted.
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-15 10:55 am (UTC)(link)
Dad looked up and caught Ghastly's eyes, and for just a moment there was no façade. There was no subterfuge about what God did or didn't know from Ghastly's heart and mind, no pretence that He couldn't tell what the sorcerer was thinking. But, equally, there was no mystery--no distance. Everything in His eyes was built upon a wealth of experience; the sadness and the love and even the understanding for Ghastly's previous anger.

The odd thing about that look was that there was less of a difference than one might have expected between it and God's cover as Dad.

"He likes you," Allie said earnestly, and then added with a slow blossoming grin, "and so do I. Do you believe in magic, Mr Ghastly?"

Dad withdrew quietly from the conversation, stepping away to come to Barney's side. He laid a gentle hand on the back of the man's neck, standing close and in a fashion which welcomed comfort, if Barney wanted it. A hug, or just this, if it was all Barney could accept.
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-15 12:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Barney didn't look up for a while, and when he did, there was absolutely no evidence on his face that he might have been crying - even if his eyes weren't quite so clear. "How'd you handle it?" he asked Dad. "How do you just... keep on going?"

He couldn't even begin to phrase what he meant, but he knew he wouldn't have to. And for that, he was quietly grateful.

In the meantime, Ghastly took the opportunity of Dad stepping away to wink at Allie, moving a little closer to her on the bed. "I do a lot more than just believe in it. If I show you something, you have to promise never to tell anyone else - not even your father."

He kept his hand close to his body, hidden, twisting so that only Allie would see what was in it. And then, very carefully, he snapped his fingers and a small flame flared in his palm.

He held it for maybe ten seconds, growing it and shrinking it, letting it dance over onto the back of his hand, and then he closed his hand and snuffed it out. Somewhere in the back of Ghastly's mind, a version of him from two days ago was staring in quiet disbelief, but he ignored it. Showing a sick child what she would inevitably grow up to explain away - assuming, he remembered with a jolt, that she grew up at all - was not going to ruin her life. In point of fact, it may just give her some of the happiness she would be craving.

Ghastly glanced back up, and couldn't help grinning as he used the same hand to push some air towards Allie's face, a quick and quiet blast that made her hair fly out behind her. That, however, was where he stopped, and drew the line - that was a little too conspicuous.
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-15 12:43 pm (UTC)(link)
"'Cos I know I'll see 'em again," Dad said quietly. "'Cos I love 'em, and it'd be worse to not be able to be there for 'em, even when there's nothin' I can do. But it ain't somethin' you've gotta face alone, Barney." He wasn't watching Barney so much as at the room around them, at the kids. If Barney looked over he'd see unshed tears and a wealth of sadness. "It's too much for just one person to face all alone."

Then His gaze landed on Ghastly and the secretive way he and Allie were leaning toward each other, the mischievous caste in Ghastly's face, the awed delight on Allie's. "Luckily, there ain't never a reason to face it alone. All you gotta do is ask, and someone'll turn up to lend you a shoulder."

Allie gasped, pressing Nicholas up to her mouth to muffle the squeal. Her eyes were wide, sparkling; her face glowed with awe. She reached out a bit as if to test whether the flame was real, but it was--she could tell it was. She could feel the flickering heat. The girl let her hand drop and squeaked at the sudden breeze, lifting her chin to it to exhale as deeply as she could. It had been a while since she'd felt the wind. Some of the kids in the ward couldn't have the windows open very often.

"Are you a faery?" she asked in a breathless whisper. "I know Santa's usually helped by elves but elves are faeries and they aren't at all short and silly-looking in the Hobbit and you're probably really good at disguises and--"

At that point she needed to stop to take a breath and press her hand against her chest with wince because her heart was complaining it didn't have enough air. Even the pain didn't dim the joy in her face; she was used to it, and this was an exception, because this was magic.
Edited 2012-12-15 12:45 (UTC)
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-15 01:08 pm (UTC)(link)
"'Cos I know I'll see 'em again."

When Barney looked into Dad's eyes just then, watched his gaze settle momentarily on every single child in the ward, he didn't see the sadness or the sparkle of tears. Or, maybe he did, but it wasn't what he focused on.

There was a... a knowing, in the man's eyes. A certainty. A strength. Love that the sadness sprang from, love that practically glowed for all the kids despite the fact that they weren't his, that he'd never even met them before today. And Barney suddenly felt very small.

It wasn't a strength Barney had. It wasn't a strength he would ever have.

Cos I know I'll see 'em again... The words rang over and over again in Barney's head, loud and unceasing, as he followed Dad's gaze to Allie and Ghastly on the bed.

There was a surprised smile on Ghastly's face, but it dissolved quickly into a look of concern. "Well," the tailor eventually decided, "I am good at disguises. I'm actually wearing one right now."

Ghastly hadn't meant to hurt her. He hadn't thought it would be that easy.
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-15 01:33 pm (UTC)(link)
"Give yourself some credit, lad," Dad said softly without looking away from Allie and Ghastly--without looking at Barney at all. But His hand was on Barney's shoulder, warm and comforting and somehow more solid than anything else in the room. "You're stronger than you look. So's she. If I were a guessin' man, and I am, I'd say she'll grow up to be a good strong woman, too. And I--"

Now He finally turned to look, squeezing the back of Barney's neck in such a way as to nudge the man to look at Him in turn. In His eyes was such a fierce knowledge, a confidence that was impossible to disbelieve. "I am very, very good at guessin' right."

He squeezed Barney's neck again and smiled. "Have hope, lad. That's also what'll get you through all this. If you're lackin' for a bit, feel free to call up one of my kids or their friends. You've met a bunch of 'em, today. They'll have hope to spare."


Well, that was no good. Allie gave Ghastly an exasperated look and straightened up. She was sick, but that didn't mean she'd let this pass her by just because of it. Luckily for Ghastly, he didn't comment on it or try to make her stop, because if he had Allie would have had to Have Words with him, as her daddy said.

"Are you?" A broad smile crept slowly across her face until it shone. "Why? What do you look like usually? Do you have pointed ears? Are you wearing a crown of leaves? I heard all faeries are royalty."
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-15 02:24 pm (UTC)(link)
"Your kids," Barney repeated dully. Like Gabe. Gabe's friends - Skull Pleasant and that teenage boy. The man who was stabbed, and the girl who was with him. Barney had met a bunch of strange people today, and Dad - Grandad, Santa Claus, resident mindreader, whatever - was the strangest of them all.

Still, it was hard not to believe him. The same knowing certainty he'd had in his eyes while he surveyed the ward was now being turned upon Barney, and in the face of that startling weight, Barney almost believed that this was just a temporary problem. That the man really was Santa Claus, and that he really could grant Christmas wishes half a year early.

But he'd had hope before, Barney reminded himself. He'd had hope several times, before every single operation. And it had never worked. The most he could do, right now, was pretend for Allie's sake that he did have that same strength.

Barney blinked. In that moment, he could almost fancy he did.



Ghastly had to take a moment before replying. People automatically assuming he looked like a king in full glory... wasn't exactly something he was used to. It was a startlingly nice feeling.

He wasn't going to lie, though. "Not exactly. And I'm... definitely not royalty." He paused, debating, and then inwardly shrugged. "But I can guarantee you there would be a few stares if I dropped it now. Best to leave it up. We're trying to be subtle, after all."

Failing miserably, but at least no one had suspected the truth yet. Not that anyone would, even if they were completely honest with everyone they met.

"But you know," Ghastly added thoughtfully, "I do have a friend who - when he isn't disguised - is completely white. If you saw him in the sunlight, he would almost glow. And...." Oh, why not? "I also have another friend who has wings."
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-15 02:55 pm (UTC)(link)
"Got a few," Dad said. "Some of 'em are in Heaven now, with their grandkids. Some of 'em aren't. They'll be around. Ghast will give you some numbers, I'll bet, but if he forgets, give him a whack and ask."

He looked fondly at Barney. Like Barney really was His son. Like Barney, just like every child in this ward, deserved as much happiness and love. He shrugged one shoulder to swing the My Little Pony backpack around to the front, reaching inside to pull out the last teddy-bear and hold it out to Barney. "Happy birthday, son."


"Of course you can't," Allie said, giving Ghastly a strange look. "You're in disguise. It wouldn't be a disguise if you let everyone see what was under it." She hadn't even been going to ask! Still, his comments were interesting. She didn't much care about the royalty part, except that she supposed it didn't make sense for every faery to be royalty. Then none of them would be. There wouldn't be a point.

But there was something slow in the way he said 'not exactly' that made her think that maybe he didn't like how he looked at all. And she really, really meant to follow that thought through, except that his next words distracted her. The girl muffled a squeal again, only pulling Nicholas's head away from her face enough to whisper reverently through his fur, "You're friends with an angel?"
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-15 03:29 pm (UTC)(link)
A part of Barney felt, probably completely unrealistically, like he was being let in on some large secret, some hidden club. And for all he knew, maybe he was. Maybe there was some honour here that he was missing. But at the same time... it felt a little like this was a courtesy Dad would have extended to anyone in a similar position. And far from making Barney feel inadequate, or even lowering the meaning of the offer, it somehow made Barney feel all the more special. Like he was being singled out for a reason.

It was a good feeling, but it was also an uncomfortable one, solely because it was a feeling Barney hadn't had in ages. It felt rusty and disused in his head, undeserved and unearned, but it was still there. Which made what happened next all the more surprising.

Barney stared down at the teddy bear, and then back up at Dad. Birthday. Right. It was his birthday tomorrow, he remembered all of a sudden. With everything that had happened the last few months, Barney had completely and honestly forgotten.

He meant to say thank you, but the words got garbled, and what came out instead was "How did you know?" How did you know when even I...



Jumping straight from faery to angel? Ghastly couldn't quite hide the surprise flickering across his face, surprise not just at the assumption, but at the fact that his immediate instinctive response was 'Of course.'

Friends. With an Archangel. It didn't feel so strange until Ghastly put the sentiment into words like that - into those exact words - and then, again, it felt like some form of blasphemy. Particularly with God Himself standing so close by.

God, Ghastly told himself sternly, is perfectly fine with Skulduggery and Gabe ending up in what might become a romantic relationship. If it hasn't already. Why would He object to this?

And then the full realisation of what he'd just admitted to, even silently, hit him and Ghastly burst out laughing. Vaguely aware that Allie might think he was laughing at her, he made an effort to stop, failed completely, and finally just tried to answer anyway. "Yes. Yes, I am." He swallowed hard and looked at her. "Only just met him yesterday, too."
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-16 01:27 am (UTC)(link)
"It was on your licence when you opened your wallet downstairs," Dad said with a tiny, almost secretive smile which didn't indicate either way as to the assertion's truth. It was absolutely possible, of course. Entirely possible.

Which didn't necessarily follow that it was the truth. It was a logical conclusion. A conclusion Barney could accept and internalise if he wanted, if it made him feel better to dismiss every other oddity as just those--oddities. But there was something in the amused gleam in Dad's eyes which suggested, just as this whole experience did, that there was something deeper. Something under the surface, something which indicated there was a depth and delight of existence possible if Barney only had the courage to reach for it--to believe in it.


The thing was, there was faeries and there was faeries. Allie's mother had been part Welsh and made very sure that Allie grew up on the same stories she did--Welsh and Irish. On King Arthur, and the Tuatha de Danann. Allie knew what girls thought faeries looked like nowadays; how they were tiny, and had sparkly wings.

She also knew they were wrong. Faeries were more like elves were described in The Hobbit. They looked like humans but more beautiful, more graceful, more everything. Allie didn't dislike the faeries most girls believed in now, because they were pretty and they were fun, but she knew they were just a cover--a way to make people stop looking for the real fae.

So the only way Ghastly could have a friend who had wings was if the friend was an angel.

And she didn't appreciate being laughed at. Sick or not, Allie bristled and lifted her chin and was prepared to ignore Ghastly as making fun of her this whole time, white with indignation. Grownups never understood. Daddy humoured her a lot, and sometimes Allie thought maybe he wasn't actually humouring her, but mostly she knew that he was, even though he never thought she was silly like most grownups did. She never told him, but sometimes she felt like she didn't want to become a grownup if it meant she had to stop believing in wonderful things like faeries and angels.

But then Ghastly tried to stop, really tried, and the way he looked at her then--like his eyes were shining. Like his whole face was glowing, and she could see past the disguise. Like he was royalty and just pretended not to be to make her feel more comfortable.

For a moment Allie just stared wide-eyed, too awed to even be embarrassed at the thought that she'd started to think he was just playing with her.

"Oh," she said, and yet none of her questions now had anything to do with the angel. She figured she'd already met an angel, even if she didn't know it. The Bible said that sometimes strangers were angels, and you couldn't know it, and that was how they could tell if you were really a good person or if you were just pretending. So chances were she'd already met one.

Allie knew about angels. She didn't need to know more. Not right now.

"Why are you called Ghastly?" she asked, still wide-eyed, still watching the magic in his face, the way his laughter lit up his eyes and the sunlight made it look like he was wearing a crown. If she tilted her head and looked out of the corner of hers eyes, she thought she could see through the disguise. "It's such an awful name. You're too pretty for a name like that. It's not your real name, is it? Mama used to tell me stories about how names were important."

She thought that over and then nodded. "It's another disguise, isn't it? An awful name so people don't see that you're really a prince. People don't expect a prince to have anything that's awful, let alone an important thing like a name."
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-16 12:18 pm (UTC)(link)
No.

No one was like that. Not in real life. Barney had his wallet out down in front of the doors for a few seconds - enough to see a picture of a little girl, maybe, but a tiny black printed date?

There was something else going on here.

Barney had promised the girl - Valkrie - that he wouldn't ask questions, but that was before the man she'd been helping received proper medical attention. And Barney had made no such promise here, to these people. "That's not it," he disagreed with a shake of his head, the uncertainty in his tone more from trepidation than any real belief that he was wrong. "You knew Allie." And not from any picture, either. "You knew the people downstairs. Who are you?"



"Ghastly is a name I came up with over four hundred years ago," Ghastly told her after a moment of quiet. "It's been my name for so long that I doubt anyone remembers what it used to be anymore."

That wasn't, strictly speaking, true. Skulduggery probably remembered, just as Ghastly remembered Skulduggery's given name. But that wasn't the point here. The point was to keep talking, keep Allie entertained and off her guard, so that maybe she wouldn't see just how deeply her words had affected Ghastly.

She was a child. A very mature child, wise beyond her years, but still. A child. A child whose mother may or may not have been a sorcerer, if she'd known that names were important. If she was, she hadn't told Barney.

And yet. Ghastly had a sudden idea that if Allie did see the scars, once she was over her initial shock, her opinion of him wouldn't change one bit.

"All manner of names suit all manner of people," Ghastly added quietly. "You'll find that a lot of my friends have weird names, too."
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-16 12:33 pm (UTC)(link)
Dad's answer was direct but not at the same time--and simple. Very simple, His eyes still depthless, grey but the warm grey of a sun-heated stone rather than any cold, drab grey of winter.

"Who do you want Me to be, Barney?"


Four hundred years. Allie watched him for a moment, her eyes wide as she tried to imagine that. Four hundred years. He didn't look any older than Daddy. Why would he? He was a faery.

"But you remember, don't you?" she asked, her tone worried. She was; surely it was a bad thing if he didn't remember his real name? Who would want that to happen? Especially a faery, whose names were so important!

"But it doesn't suit you," she objected, suddenly upset and not quite knowing why. It was just the name. Ghastly. It sounded like something old ladies said, all indignant, when they saw something they didn't like--'that's ghastly!' "If something's ghastly it's something people shouldn't like! But you're really nice and really handsome and why would you choose a name like that?"

Except for it being a disguise. But if he'd had it that long, that was a lot more than just a disguise. It was like a part of him.
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-16 01:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Barney wasn't struck dumb so much by the words, as by the fact that the man didn't deny any of it.

Not that he should. Not that he would even have a reason to. It was just that most people would; most people would at least say something along the lines of 'It's fine, I'm not here to hurt you.' Start off an explanation by defending themselves, or by reassuring Barney, or at the very least confessing that, yes, there was something more to it.

He didn't. Dad, Grandad, whatever. And the question wasn't a dodge, either. Something about the man's eyes, the way he looked at Barney, like he was really and truly interested in what the answer was. Like the answer was the only thing that mattered. Somewhere in the back of Barney's mind, an unattainable thought flickered.

"Honestly?" he asked. "I'd love it if you really were Santa."



Ghastly blinked. "Of course I remember. I'm over 400. I don't have Alzheimer's."

He paused, and then the smile he gave was a gentle one. Whether it was gentle for Allie's benefit or for his own, he wasn't sure. "If something is ghastly," he tried to explain, "it doesn't mean no one should like it. It just means that you have to look deeper than the outward appearance to find something that's worth liking. It's hard for people to do now, but it was especially hard back then. That was my way of reminding people."

He'd come up with the name before realising any of that, of course. Like with any sorcerer who took their names seriously, Ghastly could feel it clicking into place, feel the magic of the seal around his given name that it provided. It wasn't until later that Ghastly really thought about it, and understood why the name fit him so well.
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-16 02:13 pm (UTC)(link)
The grin Dad broke into was abrupt, like the sun suddenly beaming through stormclouds, golden and bright. "I can be that, son. I can be that. Been that before, even, so it ain't like you've got a rookie on side."

He proffered the teddy-bear again, this time holding it out until Barney took it.


Allie's brow furrowed, trying to work that out in her head. It wasn't anything like how she'd heard the word used before. Then again, the old ladies she'd heard were only seventy or eighty. Ghastly was four hundred. And when it put it like that, it seemed less bad. Actually, it was a lot like what faeries did. They taught lessons, right? Ghastly was just teaching people to look deeper.

"Why would they find it hard to find something worth liking?" she asked uncertainly. "You're really easy to like."
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-16 02:45 pm (UTC)(link)
The reply didn't surprise Barney as much as he felt it probably should have. The man spent his days handing out teddy bears to sick children. It wasn't a hard leap to imagine him sitting in a red sleigh with a giant bag full of presents and eight reindeer.

It was hard to imagine Ghastly as an elf.

But Barney took the teddy bear anyway, and this time, nothing interrupted the murmured "Thank you." Because honestly, who was he to turn down presents when Allie frequently claimed she didn't want any more, and Barney kept finding her things anyway?

He was still curious. He was still very curious. But Barney had also noticed the way Allie was talking with Ghastly, smiling and animated and having what looked like the time of her life, without ever leaving her bed. And the way she was still gripping that giant teddy bear... Barney wasn't going to try and look a gift horse in the mouth. It was a godsend, and that was all he could really ask for.



It wasn't often Ghastly received an honest first impression that wasn't revulsion or some type of horror, and he was enjoying every last second of it. True, the disguise could be considered cheating. But the fascinated, open, and genuine curiosity was a welcome change of pace, particularly when it came from a child.

"Because not many people are as good at looking deep as you are," he answered her. "And, to be honest, the disguise is a recent thing. I don't look like a faery prince underneath it."
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-17 11:05 am (UTC)(link)
"You're welcome, lad," Dad said gruffly. It wasn't the sort of gruffness of someone ashamed or embarrassed of the emotions they were displaying; it was the sort that came from those emotions, unashamed. He clapped Barney on the shoulder and squeezed--firm but not painful, and comforting.

"Now, it ain't our intention to take up all your time with your little lady. Ain't gonna gatecrash on your dinner. So c'mon, Barn. Let's say see ya later."

Allie looked at Ghastly, squinting a little with the intensity of her examination. "I don't believe you," she announced. "You have to prove it. Not now, 'cos there's too many people, but sometime. It can be my Christmas present."

The last was added as a flash of inspiration and with an impish grin just as Daddy and Grandad came back to the bed. Allie turned that grin on her father, a beaming expression to make him feel better again. She knew he'd been crying. Sometimes he couldn't help it.

It wasn't hard to see the teddy-bear. He was holding it a bit gingerly, like he wasn't sure what to do with it or whether he deserved it, but Allie squealed when she saw it. "Now Nicholas has an uncle," she announced, holding Nicholas out with his arms spread as if to demand a hug. "Come give him a hug."
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-17 01:01 pm (UTC)(link)
"Your Christmas present, huh?" Ghastly smiled sadly. He didn't have a chance to add anything else before Barney and Dad came back, but that might have been a good thing. He wasn't exactly adept with comfort. What would he have said, if he had the time? Ask if Allie would get another Christmas? Tell her she didn't want a present like that, anyway?

Barney's face broke into a smile - only a ghost of Allie's beaming grin, but still wider than he'd managed since they first entered the ward. He knelt down by the bed, and wrapped Nicholas up in a big bear hug from his own newly acquired teddy. "C'mere, you," he growled, almost pulling Nicholas from Allie's arms.

Ghastly glanced up at Dad, only a hint of surprise flickering across his features. Of course the number of teddy bears would work out this perfectly. For all he knew, Dad had just pulled this one out of thin air. It wasn't as if Ghastly knew the exact number they'd won at the carnival, and Dad still had that backpack. That pink My Little Pony backpack.

"Time for us to go, then?" he asked, getting to his feet.
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-17 01:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Giggling madly, Allie let her father steal Nicholas for a double-hug, opening her arms to get one of her own and therefore squish the two bears between them. She felt a bit short of breath, and her chest ached, but it wasn't bad. She knew what it felt like when it got bad.

"I love you, Daddy," she whispered into his ear as soon as she was close enough, in his comforting embrace. She kissed his cheek and gave him a squeeze and pulled back again, smiling glowingly at him.

"Yep," Dad agreed. "Told Val I'd come back for the bear she's baby-sittin', and I've got a few people I've gotta see." He smiled at Ghastly, then, an understanding smile with a twinkle in His eyes. "You've got some people to see too, I'd wager, and Li'l Missy here needs her dinner. So's Barn after his long day's haul, I'd reckon."

Allie wanted to ask them to stay. She really did. But she looked around the ward, at the nurses starting to bring dinners and the happiness on her fellow patients' faces, and smiled. They weren't going to leave. Not really. Besides, Granddad was Santa and Ghastly was a faery prince and they probably had a lot of things to do to make life wonderful for other people. That was just the kind of people they were.

So instead she only held out her hands to both of them and announced, "I think I deserve a hug from both of you first."

With a deep laugh which rolled in all directions and made people all over the ward look up and laugh in response, Grandad stepped forward and knelt down to wrap his arms around her. Allie rested her head on his shoulder for a moment, breathing as deeply as she could manage. Granddad smelled like the salt of the ocean she hadn't seen in over a year. And timbre, not like wood-shavings but like living, breathing earth and trees. And something else which Allie couldn't quite figure out, something which was warm and open and airy and like rain at the same time. Like a beam of sunlight through rainclouds, if it could be smelled. Like a rainbow. A promise.

And Allie knew everything would be okay. She felt calm in her heart, like everything would just be fine.

The hug didn't last long, but it felt like it lasted forever--as if she was still being hugged even when they parted. Allie smiled up at Granddad and he grinned back, ruffling her hair before standing to hold his hand out at Daddy. "See you 'round, Barn. Don't forget to get those numbers."
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-18 01:23 pm (UTC)(link)
A few people I've gotta see. Ghastly remembered, with a start, what he'd planned on doing before God dragged him to the carnival - getting a second opinion. A second opinion from the only man who - as long as he had some time to accept the truth on his own - wouldn't make the situation worse.

Corrival Deuce, the leader of the Dead Men unit during the war. One of the only people Skulduggery had taken orders from without question. Retired now, and very vocal about not wanting to be bothered in that retirement, but... Ghastly had no doubt that Corrival would want to know about this. And Corrival would handle it objectively. Certainly a lot more objectively than Ghastly had managed. Corrival wouldn't break Skulduggery's jaw.

And God knew, of course. Understood, too. Did this count as having God's approval? Possibly. It didn't really matter; Ghastly was supposed to make his own decisions anyway. As long as he didn't think about any of it too hard, he could do that.

Ghastly gave Allie his own hug after Dad stepped away, and a thought struck him - wasn't Raphael a healer? Didn't Gabe say that? God may not be able to intervene, but the angels had free will. Would Raphael agree to help? Ghastly debated saying something now, while they were hugging and Allie would be the only one to hear. He knew all too well the dangers of false hope, but...

...well. He couldn't just leave like this.

"If it gets bad," he said in her ear, resisting the urge just in time to say when it gets bad, "you can always ask my friend for help. The angel. His name is Gabe. All you need to do is pray to him, and... don't forget to mention my name."

Would that be enough? Maybe. Maybe not. Ghastly had no idea how prayers worked. He promised himself that once the current crisis was over, once things had settled down a bit and he didn't feel quite so lost, he'd come back himself. He'd mention this to Gabe, to Raphael, to... Merlin. And he would do everything he could to make sure Allie saw at least one more Christmas.

"I won't," Barney answered Dad in the tone of someone who still didn't know quite what they were agreeing to, but didn't particularly want to ask again. "If I see any of them again, anyway. Listen, thank you. Seriously, thank you. For everything."
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-18 01:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Allie shivered in Ghastly's embrace. It was that kind of terrified but delighted shiver when you knew that something wonderful but strange was happening, the one that was scary because it was so strange but you didn't want it to stop.

"Okay," she whispered. She didn't ask what the angel looked like, because she knew she'd know him just by seeing him. Even if he looked like a real person, she'd know who it was. She'd know because of how kind and happy he was, just like Ghastly and Granddad. And he'd probably be beautiful too. Angels were always beautiful. Allie squeezed Ghastly tight in a hug--or as tight as she could manage, anyway. "Thank you, Mr Ghastly."

"Good thing one of 'em's just there, then, ain't it," Dad said humorously, pointing toward Ghastly. Then He smiled, gentle and understanding, with warmth in His eyes. "Anytime, Barn. Anytime."
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-18 03:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Barney couldn't help feeling a little like he'd just stepped into something beyond his depth and understanding, as he looked over at Ghastly. It was a ridiculous feeling to have, especially since he wasn't handing out his own phone number or anything. Just receiving one. From a complete and total stranger. A number that he was supposed to use... when, exactly? When he wanted a bit of hope?

The stab wound in Solomon's leg swam back into his vision, but Barney set it firmly aside for now. Replaced it with the memory of Allie's face when she got Nicholas, when she was talking to Ghastly, when Dad hugged her. If that wasn't hope, Barney didn't know what was.

He gave Ghastly an uncertain smile. "Guess I'll be needing your phone number, then."

"Sure thing." Ghastly took a small business card from his pocket and held it out. There was no little picture on it, no logo, no embellishment - just Bespoke Tailors in plain lettering, and then an address and a phone number. "If you're going to drop by, though," he continued, "give me a call first. Might have to clean up the shop."

Barney looked from Ghastly, to the card, and then back to Ghastly again. "You're a tailor?"

"Yep. My father was, too. And his father before that. That's my mobile number, though, so you'll reach me anytime, anywhere." Ghastly paused, and then observed Barney quietly, like he was trying to decide on something. Barney frowned under the scrutiny, opened his mouth to ask what it was about, and then Ghastly shrugged before Barney could say a word. "Between you and me, though, praying might get a faster response."

"Right," Barney responded slowly. Praying. If that was the kind of hope these strange people were peddling, he could really do without it. Still, no harm in seeming grateful, especially since he was grateful. "Thank you, too. You guys take care."
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-18 03:25 pm (UTC)(link)
There was a weird smile lurking around the corners of Dad's mouth when He looked at Ghastly; a mix of amusement and pride, almost. "You'd be surprised where hope can come from, Barn. Ain't a shameful thing to need a reminder, sometimes."

He grinned suddenly, and now there was something eminently mischievous about the expression, as if there was an inside joke Dad was referring to. "I always take care, lad. You take care too, and don't forget to drop a line when you need it, no matter what kinda line you're usin'."

The last was added on not exactly in afterthought, but still as an addition. A clarification, almost, and yet a statement at the same time.

Dad lifted his hand to doff His cowboy hat at both Barney and Allie. "Eat well, pardners. See you 'round."

Then He turned to leave, not dismissively or hurriedly, but just with that easy casualness of a much-enjoyed meeting come to a natural end. He waved to the other kids and the nurses in the ward, His backpack slung lazily across one shoulder. Each of them waved back or gave Him a smile in return to His own. At the door He paused, turning to wait patiently for Ghastly to also be done at the tailor's own leisure, at his own time.
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[personal profile] skeletonenigma 2012-12-18 04:05 pm (UTC)(link)
On the surface, Dad's words were just another implication that praying might help. Barney hadn't been to church in a while - not because he didn't believe in any of it anymore, exactly, but because he didn't feel like he had the patience or the benevolence to pray. To ask for forgiveness. A part of him still thought that all of this was his fault, somehow, and going to church while Allie could only leave the ward once every few days or so was... it just didn't sit well with him.

But it was very hard not to dismiss the idea of praying. There was never a response, and never really a reason to understand why God would care when He had a whole universe to run.

Something about the way Dad said it, though, made it sound so mundane. And not in a bad way, either, but like it was possible. Probable. A viable option that it was only practical to consider. Barney watched Dad on his way out of the ward, frowning slightly and not quite sure why.

Finally, with a shrug, Barney put the business card in his pocket and shook Ghastly's hand just before the tailor turned to follow him out. "Thanks again," Barney told him. "You guys really didn't have to do all this."

"You're right," Ghastly agreed. "We didn't." He smiled, gave Allie one last wave, and then he and Dad left the ward.

He and Dad.

"Who do you want me to be, Barney?"

Barney stared at the doorway for a full minute, something cold running down his spine. It wasn't until a nurse arrived with dinner for Allie and - because he practically lived here now - Barney as well that he finally managed to tear his eyes away and pull over a chair.

No. It wasn't. That was impossible, and it was ridiculous. With a firm nod to himself, Barney stabbed a pea with a fork and - once she was distracted - flicked it towards Allie with a mischievous grin, feeling somehow lighter than he had in weeks.
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[personal profile] joyrodecomets 2012-12-18 04:16 pm (UTC)(link)
"They'll be okay," Dad said comfortably, dropping back to stroll beside Ghastly as they made their way downstairs. He didn't say how He knew it (which was obvious) or why He thought so (because that was equally obvious) or even how it was going to happen (and that could have been any way at all).

He didn't lead the way to the waiting room where Valkyrie would inevitably be; rather, He walked by Ghastly's side, just as He had the whole afternoon. "Reckon she liked you," He added, grinning at the sorcerer. "Reckon he did too. Good of you to give 'im somethin' for contact."

As if, as far as He was concerned, Ghastly could still have declined. Could still have objected, despite Dad suggesting it and even actively pointing Ghastly out as a source of help. They reached the elevator and Dad prodded the button; at once the doors opened, the elevator empty, for them to step in.